Pasensya na

kung ako ay medyo nawawala

hindi naman ako tinatamad at hindi rin walang gana

kung hindi man ako makaikot

at di makabisita

pasensya na

tambak lang talaga

ang iniisip at ginagawa.

pero

kapag nakahinga na

kapag nakatapos na

laking pasalamat syempre

kasi ang saya-saya!

(ayoko lang ma-zero sa buwang ito hehe, pero busy po talaga, ilang araw na lang!!!)

Weddings 101: The first step

It has been said that the journey to a thousand miles begins with a single step. Or the first step.

And in the preparation for a journey to a thousand forever, where or how to begin?

First on the list would have to be the date, yes, the wedding date and not who to invite, who to do the gown, who the photographer, who'll do the catering, etc, etc. There will be a lot of time for those, but first thing first, when do you plan to get married?

Choosing the date can be very tricky, depending on your preference, you have about 365 days to choose from. Some couples followed their religious beliefs, some according to feng shui, some according to their anniversary/ies, some even because it was what their parents want! The latter is not really healthy, at least on the part of the couple as they allowed others to decide for themselves, not a good start, really. And, for some couple, time is of the essence. :)

The wedding date should be on top of everything because as you look for the wedding venue, reserve for a caterer, inquire for a make up artist, talk to a photographer and meet other wedding suppliers, the first question they will ask: "When is your wedding?" or "Wedding po ba, kailan?" I think that's the protocol as they also have to check their schedules and/or availability, so there.

I believe the wedding date should be decided by the couple and should not be pressured by outside forces. To begin with, it's their wedding, di ba? Lyn and I were lucky enough not to have meddling parents (meddling friends, marami hehehe), and the date we choose was acceptable to them, my mother and my future mother-in-law were even overly joyful of our choice.

Aside from the religious significance of our chosen date, we also look into the practical side of things and consider the number of months that we'll need to prepare, checking the busy months of our work (me: budgeting sessions, auditing, enrollments, etc. and lyn: sales calls, branch visits, mandatory schooling, exams, etc) and the timing for our "funding". If someone will say that eight months is a long time to prepare, i'll say not really but it did give us enough room to schedule everything.

Now that the first step was taken, real works begin.

All set

It all started with a question, then she said yes.

If we're going to go back and remember everything, the months of planning, preparation, a major setback, bridal fairs and lots and lots of meetings all over the metro were a dizzying spectacle we never thought we can accomplish (and survived!), and how's that with the equally migraine-inducing work schedules we have?

In about two months, a beautiful bride and her dashing (talaga lang ha hehe) groom will walk down the aisle to start a bright new life together.

Yes, almost everything's set and we're only working on some details (like who to assign to this and who to attend to that) and some final meetings with our suppliers.

Right now, the feeling of excitement, nervousness and yes, being pressured, almost always reign in our heads. But with the support of our family, friends and reliable wedding suppliers, we can still have a blast with the preparation.

It was really an experience, and I'll share it through this blog later. Abangan. :)

nose bleed

did you notice the picture on my header? AND did you also notice that it wasn't aligned/centered? it wasn't intentional, i just don't know how to do it hehehe.

you see, when i found out that i can easily put a picture on the header i immediately click the browse portion to try and have it save. my little brain didn't realized that an alignment issue will surface and the analytical skills that has been missing in my life since birth will be needed.

hay!

i run to the "edit HTML" or whatever and take a look if i can find something, i did found a lot but i don't know what are those hahaha. and just by looking at the gazillion code-combination of letters, numbers and punctuation marks gave me a horrendous headache and made me swear that reading accounting books is better! okay, the reading part was just a joke :).

but seriously, can anyone help me with this dilemna? my header now has a picture and it has been a life-long dream (don't worry, i'll replace it with another if there will be some protests hehe) but with the uneven sides, it looks horrible!

is there an easier path to this universal problem other than studying the codes and be mesmerized by CSS files? help!!!!

UPDATE: Problem solved! lalalalala hehehe

Reunion

I can only think of two occasions where family reunions (other than those that were painstakingly planned) can happen: a death in the family and a wedding in the family.

During the wake of my father, an instant get-together happened right from the first night until the last one. My cousins whom I have not seen for the last 15 or so years were present to give their last respect to my dad, and for the last time, it was again my father who “organized” this reunion. You see, my father was very active in arranging family reunions and he was a bit frustrated that the last one he requested last summer didn’t materialized as his eldest sister had to go back to the US for reasons I am not aware of. It turned out that in a few more months, it will push thru and what do we know, ironic it may seem, he was the reason it happened.

Aside from the scheduled vigils, expected sobs and endless stories about my dad, never-ending kumustahan and kuwentuhan were also inevitable. As the day went on and the night goes deeper, whispers turned into a large group of people talking and eventually, silence that is usually associated with midnight was over-powered by laughter and only a passing scent of sampaguita can lower the volume (my dad has a good sense of timing especially in delivering punchlines, so hirit nya yun).

We usually look at death with a deep sorrow and we took it like a stab in our heart. But there was a bright candle that glowed on those dark and painful days, as not only a reunion had happened but also reconciliation between erring relatives. Two of my aunts have been ignoring each other for the longest time, but on the last night of my father’s wake, right in front of his coffin, they bumped with each other and the angry fireworks we thought would fly was instead swept by tears as they hugged like long lost sisters, no apologies needed, no explanations, it just happened. They just said: “Para tayong tanga, bakit ba kasi di tayo nagpapansinan?”

God’s hands really work in silence, no explanations, it will just happen.

Thank you silence

To everyone, for all your prayers and condolences, maraming-maraming salamat. More than 40 days after my father's death, the feeling of losing a part of our heart is still there (and will always be, i guess) but we can now smile, we can now laugh, we can now talk about Daddy without a tear and more importantly, I can now see acceptance from the eyes of my mother. God's hands worked in silence, guiding and shaping our minds/hearts and we are thankful for that.

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gusto ko sanang magsimula sa pamamagitan ng pagpapatawa pero di ko namana ang sense of humor ng aking ama.

gusto ko sanang magbigay ng napakaraming papuri pero di ako makakita ng mga salitang susukat sa kanyang pagiging dakilang ama, mapagmahal na asawa, maaasahang kaibigan at mapagkakatiwalaang pulis na nagsilbi ng mahigit 25 taon sa ating bayan.

gusto ko sanang magkwento ng mga alaala nya pero wala akong maisip nang hindi tumutulo ang aking luha, wala akong maisulat nang hindi ako maiiyak.

gusto kong isipin na ang lahat ng nararamdaman nating lungkot, pagdadalamhati at pangungulila sa pagkawala ni daddy ay tulad ng tubig na normal na umaagos, normal na dumadaloy at normal na lumilipas, at ang lahat ng lungkot, dalamhati at pangungulila na nangingibabaw sa ating lahat ngayon ay aagusin at idadaloy ng panahon, at ang lahat ng ito ay lilipas sa takdang oras, sa takdang panahong ang Diyos lamang ang may alam kung kailan.

gusto kong isipin na bagamat iniwan na tayo ni daddy, nakatingin sya sa ating lahat ngayon nang nakangiti at maligaya sa kanyang nakikita na nandirito tayong lahat, at kahit sa kahuli-hulihang pagkakataon na masisilayan natin ang kanyang katawan, ay umaapaw pa rin ang pagpapakita ng pagmamahal, pagsuporta at pagpupugay kay daddy.

ang labis na kalungkutan na bumabalot sa amin ngayon ay paunti-unting hinuhubaran ng inyong taos-pusong pakikiramay at ang inyong mga dasal ang isa sa mga kinakapitan ngayon ng aming pamilya.

ayaw kong mamaalam sa yo, daddy dahil alam kong magkikita-kita pa tayo, maaaring hindi ngayon o bukas pero darating din na magkakasama-sama tayong muli. pero sa mga sandali na hindi ka namin makikita, sa mga minutong di namin maririnig ang yong boses, sa mga oras na di ka namin mahahawakan at mayayakap, mamimiss ka namin.

ngayon pa lang, namimiss at hinahanap ka na namin. mahal na mahal ka namin daddy.

NOTE: this is the speech that i prepared for the Luksang-Parangal for my father, who passed away on July 25, 2008 and was laid to rest on July 30, 2008. this is the speech/eulogy that i am about to say/read but can only manage to utter the first two paragraphs as the lump on my chest gets heavier and heavier as i go on talking, i just stopped and let my cousin read it for us. we are still grieving but we know that in God's time everything will be fine, and as we woke up each day, we know we're getting there.

i'll leave for a while but of course i'll be back, for the meantime, please pray with us for the eternal repose of the soul of my father, the Retired Master Sergeant Teodoro V. Perion.

Quest

nagkakalkal ako ng mga lumang pictures at nakita ko ito, noong nakaraang taon pa kuha ito pero natuwa ako sa title na inilagay ko sa litratong ito: Quest (parang knight na parang part ng kanta no?)

napapagusto tuloy akong kumanta, at mag-videoke mamayang gabi. kailangang magrelax muna kahit solo flight, andaming lalakarin bukas!

excuse me po, babanat na muna ako:

This is my quest to follow the star

No matter how hopeless

No matter how far

(napakanta kayo no? hehe)

....

Happy weekend everyone, next song, este, kanpai!!!!

Bridal Fairs

So far we’ve been to three, and I think that would be enough. Imagine walking into a place where everything that soon-to-be married couples will need were fitted into a scented, decorated, a bit noisy, and dizzying showground, these couples will be overwhelmed and overwhelmed, and in our case, multiply that by three.

A bridal fair can either be the couple’s heaven or their nightmare. If they have the money, going in these fairs is like preparing for their wedding in just one or two days. Why? Because everything can be found there: gowns, caterers, photographers, rings, invitations, make-up artists, flowers, cakes, event organizers, stylists, even dentists and dermatologists have already joined the pit. And if they have the moolah, their wedding will be headache and stressed-free, all they have to do is just affix their signatures and that’s it!

But, if the couple is on the other side of the fence and still decided to be tantalized by the dreamy atmosphere the fair can offer, going there is like having their dream weddings torn into pieces. Why? Simply because their dream wedding has a tag price, and it’s expensive.

While we’re neither of the above, we do have a budget to follow, and the accountant and banker in us keep us from going beyond the budget. We are aware that bridal fair is a big trap for over-spending on weddings but we are also aware that it can give us loads of freebies and in turn huge savings if we play our cards right.

In three separate events (and meeting and seeing the same suppliers, the same faces, and being greeted by the same enthusiastic smiles, some even know us), we were able to book the major ones and the free items, discounts and upgrades that we got were worth at least P30k! And with the expected increase in prices, and not counting the inflation, that means a lot of money and enormous savings!

While both Lyn and I do not possess the bargaining power of our parents (magagaling tumawad), magaling naman kaming magpakipot, we played hard-to-get and in turn, the wedding supplier will give in to our demands, parang nakapang-barat na rin kami hehehe.

Seriously, most wedding suppliers have a standing discount to couples who will book on site, say 20-30% discount, or a free this, or an upgrade to that, we took those discounts as part of the package and the wise thing we did was to look into the details of the package, crossed out those that will not be needed (like a tarpaulin or blow up pictures or a generic signature frame) or those that will have no purpose (like an ice carving or an extended red carpet) on the wedding and changed or replaced them with something that we need (like a bridal car or sound system or bubble machine). Trust me, a couple of hundreds or thousands removed from the package and replacing them with something that you will be paying if not included in the package can go a long, long way.

Why do I know of those things? Because I, and later on Lyn, belong to a group of “week-end” wedding coordinators before and our exposures to numerous weddings in the past gave us a firm foundation and idea on what to expect. So after the engagement, the hard work begins.

And did our being a “week-end” wedding coordinators worked on our advantage? Yes and no. And i'll post something about it later. :)

wedding dresses by Linoi

scam!

For the last few months, i've been receiving text messages from anonymous senders who seem to have unlimited text message allowance and a lot of free time to bombard everyone with their too good to be true "good news".

The following are some of them (messages typed/copied as is):

From +639105524575: CONGRATULATIONS!!! Your cellphone # WON TOYOTA ALTIS plus 300thou as HOMEPARTNER last MAY 21. To claim it, please call now BERT RAMOS of Phil. Com. Center (wow! homepartner kaya saan? tax-free ba yang altis na yan ha? me libreng gasolina na ba?)

From +639092603592: Get up to 2M LOAN,asLOWas.88%int, OR w/1mo PYMNT HOLDAY! 12-48mo!NO COLLTRAL!Cntct Kean 0928-9617484, (02)4618493, 4180720. Ths s an outgoing#. Pls dnt rply hre. Tnx. (whoa! where in the world can you get a 2M loan, with less than 1% interest, payable in 4 years without collateral? mayaman ha! i did call the number out of curiousity, it was answered by a professional sounding man but i didn't say anything to him, at least those landline numbers were legit wehehe)

From +639094747813: D' AUDITOR's of PHIL.CHARITY FOUNDATION nform u dat ur Celfon no. won Php950,000.00 2nd prize winner draw last: 01/05/08 Pls Call Me Now i"m Atty. VILMA Y. TUAZON (naku attorney, bakit di nyo pa ginawang P1 million para naman eksakto at masarap pakinggan dahil milyonaryo na ako! o pang-first prize na yun? kayo talaga.)

From +639297794433: Congratulations! Your cell # had won 1M pesos during the anniversary of the PGMA foundation raffle draw. DTI Permit # 2578 Series 2008 Please Contact Atty. VICTOR T. SALONGA jr. at 09297794433 for details (ayan, with DTI permit number pa yan ha and no less than the President's foundation ang involved, wuhoo! at eto na yung hiniling kong P1 million! hehehe. teka lang, hindi kaya si Victor T. Salonga at Vilma Y. Tuazon ay iisa? hmm, V at T.)

And the last one is the funniest, if not the most stupid: From +639182116931:

Gudpm,favor naman pkiloadan mu ko bgay ko din sau im4tante tlg lng kc d2 ko n0w s bus pauwin jan,e my kailngan ak0ng twgan pr msundo ako.tnx. (hanep, me dramang involve! sana sinabi na lang nya na "sunduin mo ako, now na!" hehehe. at pano ka makaka-text kung wala kang load? okay given na piso na lang ang laman ng cellphone mo, dapat sana tinext mo na lang yung susundo sa yo ng "hir na me, wer na u?" ayan, sa sobrang pagka-creative mo na-extra ka tuloy sa blog na to! next time, mag-seminar muna sa dugu-dugu gang ng istayl ha.)

kayo, me nagpasundo na ba, este, me nareceive na ba kayo ng mga ganyang scam? (wag na muna nating isama ang mga telemarketers, isa pa ang mga yun)

hostage

isa akong hostage.

sa simple kong pagkakaintindi, tungkol ito sa inosenteng biktima na napagitna sa dalawang mayabang ng pwersa, walang magawa kundi maluha at magmakaawa, manginig sa kaba at maihi sa takot.

isa akong hostage. katulad din ng mga ordinaryong tao. na napapagitna sa hirap. sa kalam ng sikmura. sa kawalan ng suporta. sa kawalan ng pera.

bukas, o sa makalawa, tataas ng P0.50 ang isang sakay sa jeep dahil sa himutok ng isang industriyang spoiled masyado sa kinauukulan, na kapag di pinagbigyan ay isang umiiyak na pagmamaktol ang ipupukol sa walang kalaban-labang si juan. tigil-pasada ang sagot, at sa mga pasahero, bahala kayo sa buhay nyo!

at ang gobyerno? kunyari ay astig pero kaagad-agad ding tutupi. at sa mga pasahero? ililibre na lang kayo sa trak ng basura, tapos bahala na rin kayo sa buhay nyo!

ang sarap maging ordinaryong pasahero sa bayang ito no? pipilayin ka sa taas ng pamasahe, papabayaan ka sa kalye, at ni isang hagod ng proteksyon wala kang maramdaman.

sa mga isyung tumutubo dala ng isa pang sutil na industriya ng langis, me konting paghinga ang naibibigay sa muling pagtaas ng pamasahe sa hanay ng mga tsuper at operator ng jeep, naambunan naman ng tila dugong grasya dala ng VAT ang bangkaroteng kaban ng bayan at sila'y nagbubunyi na ito raw ay naibabalik na sa tanan, pero teka lang, ang sa bugbug-saradong ordinaryong pasahero ba na naghihingalo na sa mga pasanin ay meron bang nag-aalala?

meron bang nagsasabi na karapatan naman ng pasahero ang dinggin? na mga pasahero naman ang bigyan ng pansin?

hindi ba isa yang uri ng panggigipit?

isa akong hostage na tinatadyakan ngunit di makalaban. iniipit. pinababayaan.

may boses pero naririnig ba? o mas tamang sabihing, may nakikinig ba?

suntukan na lang tayo! o di kaya ganito na lang gawin nyo sa amin!

Eyes

Look at me

and what do you see?

Motivation

I can.

I must.

And, I will.

Stairs

(taken using my camera phone)

lead me.

Bloggers' party, anyone?

There are two bloggers parties schedule this Friday and on July 4, both at Taste of Asia in MOA. I am spreading the good news: tara!

PARTY NO. 1

What: Buhay Coke ng Bloggers with SM Hypermarket (party ito!)

When: June 27, 2008, Friday, 7:00 p.m.

Where: Taste Asia (beside SM Hypermarket) at the Mall of Asia

Why: Para magsaya! Loads of prizes up for grabs!

Come in an angel or devil attire (or wear black, red or white) and get a chance to win more prizes!

To join, kindly REGISTER HERE. All bloggers who register and come also get a case of Coke Zero 330ml.

PARTY NO. 2

What: Taste of Beauty at Taste Asia (party!!!)

When: July 4, 2008, Friday, 7:00 p.m.

Where: Taste Asia (beside SM Hypermarket) at the Mall of Asia

It's a party about being your best! Want an iPhone? They're planning to host a contest and the "I" gadget was mentioned!The party is open to guys and gals! Guy bloggers must bring a girl friend and girl bloggers must bring more girl friends! To join, REGISTER HERE.

I am already registered with the Coke party and i'll bring some mountaineer friends, but for the Pond's event still undecided (but might go).

Tara lets!

I'm officially missing you.

mountains

badminton games

movies

scavenging during mall sales

starbucks

thai food

new shirts

little tokyo

and so much more...

as we usually do the above on weekends, and our weekends are now plastered with new destinations and priorities, i am now starting to miss the smell of the mountain, the dirt on my shoes, the swoosh on the court, the expensive movies and the expensive coffee that goes with it...

changes, changes.

and priorities.

kaya yan. bawi na lang after. :)

(taken last March, my last climb huhuhu)

R.P.

Of course, it stands for Republic of the Philippines.

Pero, kung ibabaling natin ang tingin sa paligid, parang gusto ko na syang palitan. Dati, sa Lotto lang ako nakakakita ng maraming taong nakatambay at naghihintay ng turn nila para ma-punch yung mga inaalagaan nilang mga number pero ngayon...

Pasyal ka sa palengke, dinudumog ng mga tao ang NFA Rice, kahit bata nakapila para sa maximum na dalawa o limang kilong bigas kada tao.

Mag-commute ka gamit ang MRT/LRT, parang fiesta sa pag-uunahan!

Daan ka sa Landbank, daig pa ang lotto sa dami ng mga taong gustong makakuha ng one-time P500 subsidy para sa kuryente (qualified ako dyan kasi ang konsumo ko sa kuryente eh nakaka-avail ng lifeline discount).

Pasok ka sa mga government office na nag-ooffer ng loans, hala! ika-151 ka sa waiting! wag na nating isama ang NSO kasi since birth (pun intended) ganun na talaga ang eksena roon.

Sa POEA at DFA o kahit sa NBI at maging sa LTO, di ba dagsa rin ang tao na nagkakapalitan ng mukha at pawis sa pagkuha ng isang form?

Dagdag na rin natin ang mga entrance sa mall na parang yung stick na idinudutdot ng mga sekyu sa pumapasok ay makakadetect ng bomba o di kaya droga.

Kahit ang mga ATM machine pati na rin CR, ultimo artistang pinupuntahan ng tao.

Ngayon, parang konting kilos natin kailangan pang ipila, sa jeep, sa grocery, pati pag-akyat ng hagdan pipila. Ang EDSA nga, isa syang malaking pila!

Sa dami ng pila-pila ngayon, sakto na rin sigurong bansagang Republic of Pila ang RP.

Saan pa ba pwedeng pumila?

shining, shimmering splendid

(i just made the above from the movie maker software installed on my cellphone and i used pictures also taken by the same gadget, so sorry from some blurred images, and in a way, i am also testing the video upload of blogger using file/s from my pc and not sourcing thru youtube).

Will you...? (the continuation)

(Warning: Long post)

Some people say that the best surprises are those that were not planned at all...

I tend to believe the opposite until reality came walking down on me. One Saturday, when I thought everything’s going according to plan (place: check, ring: check, camera: check, speech: check, me looking good: check) and pretend that the dinner is just going to be one of those exploration-and-try-something-new-and-not-the-usual eat out, my confidence level is zooming high as I know that I did everything I need to do...or so I thought!!!

7 pm was our schedule with My Mother’s Garden (yes, that’s where hehe) but we came in early so we can roam around the house and the garden (and for me to familiarize with the surrounding and scout for the best place to, you know...). Coming in early was a nice idea as we did roam around the house and stayed in the garden in front of it and wished that we can also have a similar space in the city, it’s quite romantic actually (TIIING! me: while looking at her, my heart was jumping and my brain’s asking if it’s the time already...)

“tu-ko...tu-ko...tu-ko...”

With a background like that, naaah, definitely not the right time (and the lizard continued what he’s doing like he’s laughing at me “tu-ko...tu-ko...tu-ko...). And Lyn’s also laughing at me as she knows how much I hated tuko because one summer when I was still a child, I was six or seven maybe, I would always tag along my dad (the entire family actually) to this little farm that we have in Quezon, stay in this little nipa hut and...wait, wait, I’ll save that on a later post, lumalayo ako hehe.

Okay, I decided not to do it right there. And since it’s getting dark and the mosquitoes around are now starting to fall in line on both of my ears and most of them can’t resist my charm and alternately biting my arms and my neck (I have issues with mosquitoes you know), we decided to go inside again. The place at night is very charming, with the yellowish light coming from incandescent bulbs above, some candles were flickering, colourful orchids were around, soft music was playing, nice rattan furniture and we were alone sitting there, holding hands (TIIING! me: while looking at her, my heart was jumping and my brain’s asking if it’s the time already...)

“HI THERE!”

It was Letlet, she just came in from the kitchen without any warning hehehe. so, purnada ulit :) After the usual introduction, Letlet stayed for a while and talked and discussed the concept of their charming little restaurant and the endless possibilities this can give them now that the secret has been told, first via word of mouth (thru bloggers syempre) and then, the mainstream media (including the television) and that they are also open for anything like parties and exhibits, even a wedding can now already be held there depending upon the arrangement.

She just said wedding and my heart somersaulted!

She didn't stay long as she will be attending to some errands and she told us to just wait for a few more minutes while their reliable waiter set up the table. She left us with an assurance that we will enjoy the food (and we did!). As she vanished from our view and the waiter told us that the table is ready, I felt something racing on my chest, I know the countdown had begun.

And sweat started to appear on my forehead.

The moment we sat down on the dinner table, we felt the homey and elegant ambiance of the restaurant, like being in a hotel, and alone, with a soft music playing. Lyn immediately said "ang ganda at ang romantic naman dito, perfect na perfect sa mga proposal no? sayang, walang ring!!!" then she gave me that smile.

I almost fell from my chair pero syempre, di ako nagpahalata, instead I just go with the flow and added in jest, "oo nga eh, di nakabili, sayang." then I snapped my fingers like nanghihinayang and a few "tsk tsk tsk" for the added touch hehe. I don't know if my acting was believable but I thought I did good hehehe.

We were in the middle of our pasta dish when I realized that I am losing momentum, nauunahan ako ng kaba, hindi ko maisingit! anak ng tipaklong, ngayon pa ba ako matotorpe?

Fortunately, love can and will find a way :)

While eating, unethical it may seem, I took my cellphone out and started composing a message. Lyn asked me kung sinong ka-text ko, (me, acting of course) I told her that it was my sister in Quezon as they're asking me to send the money for this house painting project that I initiated in the province. And Lyn just said "okay", unknown to her, I am actually texting Letlet.

I asked her if I can meet her somewhere and talk about my plan. I press send and in less than one minute, I saw her entering the restroom and then leaving afterwards. Whaat? Then, I look at my phone and her message was "go to the restroom and meet me there", it was sent twice. Oh my.

So I excused myself to Lyn and told her that I needed to go to the cr (which was unusual, by the way). The room going there is full of wedding paraphernalia and I am still scanning the entire room when Letlet came in with a giggling face.

"So, you will be proposing to her? you will be getting married? oh my god, oh my god! So, okay, okay, what's the plan? oh my god" So I told her what I wanted.

I went back to our table and Lyn was smiling "nakita ko si letlet, sumunod sa yo, ano'ng ginawa nyo? hehehe?" Blushing, I said "she just show me the way to the cr, baka daw ako maligaw hehe"

While we were enjoying the food, the occasional silence (while chewing) was meet with my eyes darting on the kitchen door, my occassional sighing was hidden by alternately drinking water and juice, my nervousness was concealed by me taking pictures of everything, and the cold sweat on my neck was just cold, ha! ganito pala, nakakapanlamig, nakakakaba pero nakaka-excite din.

I was looking at Lyn when the waiter came in with the tray full of desserts: fruit tarts, cupcake and this red little box that surely grabbed Lyn's attention.

Eto na yun. At natigilan na ako, I am smiling but smiling awkwardly, I am smiling but I am also shaking, I am smiling and there's a loud banging on my chest!

Lyn's curiousity about the red little box added more pounding on my chest, but I laughed when she said: "Ang sweet naman nila, me give-away pa!"

Me: Oo...nga...me...give...away...

And she used the knife to know if the red little box was edible or not "wow, naka-box pa talaga, ano kaya to?"

I am speechless at this very moment, almost not moving but just waiting for her to open it...

And when she did, it was her turn to be speechless, her mouth covered by her hand, her eyes reflecting that shiny little stone, she was blushing, and open-mouthed she looked at me...

I knelt and asked her "Honey, will you marry me?"

Still blushing and this time giggling, she nodded and said "Yes."

I took the ring and put it on her finger, though I am still kneeling, she hugged me and I embraced her tight...

(Anita Baker is singing in the background..."Im in love, sweet love, don't you ever go away, it'll always be this way, i'm in love, sweet love...")

next: the aftermath :)

Will you...?

In the land of fairy tales, a kiss from prince charming is all it takes to wake up a sleeping princess, and they live happily ever after…

In the movies, it takes a sleeping man for Sandra Bullock to meet Bill Pullman, and amidst all the struggles and confusions, they live happily ever after…

In real life, it takes more than a kiss and definitely not a sleeping man for the hopeless romantics to live happily ever after, it takes guts, a lot of planning, a bit of luck, a good sense of timing.

And a romantic place to, you know, pop up the question.

The time is definitely ripe for that next step for some bells to start ringing. My brain worked overtime, my mind was on a trance whenever I think of all the possibilities, and I, short of harassing, nay, forcing myself for that creative juice, or what remains of it, to start flowing just to come up with the formula on how to do this, when to do this and where to do this.

I didn’t know that it can be this tough! Or I am just putting so much pressure on myself?

I am not known to be a man of surprises, I maybe hiding or sleeping or off somewhere when the 1001 romantic ideas started falling from the sky, I may have grab some but these were crumbs and not the type that can one can swoon over, I don’t have big and earth-shaking ideas, or stuffs that can turn the world upside down, I don’t want things to be complicated, in other words, yours truly is just your plain and simple Juan.

But this time, I want to be different. I want this to be memorable, especially for her.

And you know what, I was also surprised with what I did.

To be continued...