Wednesday, August 06, 2008

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gusto ko sanang magsimula sa pamamagitan ng pagpapatawa pero di ko namana ang sense of humor ng aking ama.

gusto ko sanang magbigay ng napakaraming papuri pero di ako makakita ng mga salitang susukat sa kanyang pagiging dakilang ama, mapagmahal na asawa, maaasahang kaibigan at mapagkakatiwalaang pulis na nagsilbi ng mahigit 25 taon sa ating bayan.

gusto ko sanang magkwento ng mga alaala nya pero wala akong maisip nang hindi tumutulo ang aking luha, wala akong maisulat nang hindi ako maiiyak.

gusto kong isipin na ang lahat ng nararamdaman nating lungkot, pagdadalamhati at pangungulila sa pagkawala ni daddy ay tulad ng tubig na normal na umaagos, normal na dumadaloy at normal na lumilipas, at ang lahat ng lungkot, dalamhati at pangungulila na nangingibabaw sa ating lahat ngayon ay aagusin at idadaloy ng panahon, at ang lahat ng ito ay lilipas sa takdang oras, sa takdang panahong ang Diyos lamang ang may alam kung kailan.

gusto kong isipin na bagamat iniwan na tayo ni daddy, nakatingin sya sa ating lahat ngayon nang nakangiti at maligaya sa kanyang nakikita na nandirito tayong lahat, at kahit sa kahuli-hulihang pagkakataon na masisilayan natin ang kanyang katawan, ay umaapaw pa rin ang pagpapakita ng pagmamahal, pagsuporta at pagpupugay kay daddy.

ang labis na kalungkutan na bumabalot sa amin ngayon ay paunti-unting hinuhubaran ng inyong taos-pusong pakikiramay at ang inyong mga dasal ang isa sa mga kinakapitan ngayon ng aming pamilya.

ayaw kong mamaalam sa yo, daddy dahil alam kong magkikita-kita pa tayo, maaaring hindi ngayon o bukas pero darating din na magkakasama-sama tayong muli. pero sa mga sandali na hindi ka namin makikita, sa mga minutong di namin maririnig ang yong boses, sa mga oras na di ka namin mahahawakan at mayayakap, mamimiss ka namin.

ngayon pa lang, namimiss at hinahanap ka na namin. mahal na mahal ka namin daddy.

NOTE: this is the speech that i prepared for the Luksang-Parangal for my father, who passed away on July 25, 2008 and was laid to rest on July 30, 2008. this is the speech/eulogy that i am about to say/read but can only manage to utter the first two paragraphs as the lump on my chest gets heavier and heavier as i go on talking, i just stopped and let my cousin read it for us. we are still grieving but we know that in God's time everything will be fine, and as we woke up each day, we know we're getting there.

i'll leave for a while but of course i'll be back, for the meantime, please pray with us for the eternal repose of the soul of my father, the Retired Master Sergeant Teodoro V. Perion.

23 comments:

Gina said...

Zwerwin.....my heartfelt condolences to you and the family. May your beloved dad rest in peace.

Pearl said...

Hi Zherwin...happened to bloghopped from Snglguy..I know how you feel coz' I lost my dad too about a year ago. I sucked when I delivered my eulogies for my dad coz' I haven't got the time to really prepare for it. Naintindihan naman siguro nya. I bet your dad liked your speech. My heartfelt condolences. God bless your family.

TheScud said...

my condolences, zherwin and to your family.

carlotta1924 said...

hi zherwin, my condolences to you and your family. you have our prayers.

jho said...

My condolences to you and your family... In due time everything will be ok.

lei said...

my sincere condolences to you and your family.

Panaderos said...

I'm very sorry to hear about your loss. My deepest condolences to you and your family.

Belle said...

Zherwin, Ohhh, am so sorry to hear about the loss of your father. Give it time and it helps to remember good memories with him. You will get through it.

TC

IA. said...

Zherwin, I know nothing I say will help ease the pain, and remove that void in your heart for the loss of your dad. I'm going through the same thing, and I know how painful and sad it is to lose someone so dear. My deepest condolences and prayers go with you.

Abaniko said...

Zherwin, so sorry to hear about your loss. My thoughts are with you and your family.

cathy said...

My sincere condolences.

atticus said...

zherwin, i am so sorry to hear that. my condolences.

pag ganito, wala akong masabi. wala akong kayang sabihin.

i'll just say a prayer for you and your family.

hang in there. be strong!

Sexy Mom said...

condolence, dear Zherwin

it's difficult but it's inevitable. here's sharing with you a poem i wrote on the death of my youngest grandson almost a year ago. He was 6 weeks old

HOPE
as certain as the sun sets, so will it rise the next day
the pain in our hearts may go away, it may stay
they say that time heals, but for how long?
i wait, we all wait, but right now it is a pain so strong
embedded into the recesses of our very beings
the tears may have dried but still there are things
that we cannot fathom but try to accept
all that is left are memories in our hearts best kept
reminding us that no matter how short
they were still happy moments for all they are worth
and we can only be thankful when we look back
to the innocent smile and the warmth, it was pure luck
life has to go on, and slowly we rise from this deep fall
love will keep us together, we hope, again we will be whole
yes, the pain in our hearts may go away, it may stay
but as certain as the sun sets, so will it rise the next day.

joycel said...

My condolences to you , Zherwin. I also lost my father when i was ten but it still hurts everytime i remember him. He was also a soldier( Seargent ) and was in coma for almost two years before he left us. And it's difficult growing up with out a father. I always think of the "what if's". But God had a special purpose of every circumstance that he brought to our lives.

My prayes are with you and your family.

Allan Barredo said...

my sincere condolences to you Zherwin. Just remember the happy times, its how I keep my father's memory alive.

Rudy said...

I'm really sorry to learn about your fathers' passing, Zherwin. Ito pala yung sinabi mo sa text mo na emergency kaya ka uuwi sa Quezon. My deepest, and sincerest condolences to you and your family.

Jo-lo said...

Naku Zherwin pasensya na ha. Di ko alam... nangulit pa ako sa yo kung paano pumunta sa Cagbalete Island... condolence...

Jo-lo said...

Si Nick po ito ng watson.online... was updating my son's blog. Condolence po sa family mo...

vernaloo said...

Zherwin pasensha na ngayon lang ako nakabalik. I'm sorry for your loss. I don't know what else to say. I'll include your dad in my prayers.

Mahalia said...

Condolences.

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tin-tin said...

my condolences...

mich said...

Zherwin,

My heartfelt condolences to you and your family. God Bless!

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